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Technical Troubles.

07-Sep-10

Lots of technical trouble here, which has slowed down the website a bit.  My computer does not really work, and my camera does not work at all.  Both need to be replaced this month.  I have enough money to do it (barely), so that will happen.

And while I’m on this topic, let me complain about AT&T.  Verizon is worse in many ways, but AT&T is galling too.  The past week my phone has refused to take or make calls – “emergency calls only” it tells me.  This was bad timing, as I had a group of people coming up for Labor Day weekend.  But I figured it was probably my fault – maybe I didn’t pay the bill or something (I do forget, so it’s not unreasonable).  So today I logged in, and sure enough, I had paid the bill on time.  There was no reason that I could find from my online account for the phone not to work.  So I figured I’d tell AT&T what was happening, and tell them to put my service back on, or tell me what was wrong.  After spending several minutes trying to figure out how to send an email, they made me select a topic – and when I selected, “phone not working,” they refused to allow me to send them an email, because that situation, they told me, requires me to call them up.  But of course, my phone is not working, which hampers me in only one way, namely that it’s hard for me to make calls.  I don’t work in an office, so there’s no office phone to use.  You can’t use a payphone to be put on hold for a half-hour, and anyway, there are no payphones, anywhere in the Catskills (a literal fact).  So I changed my topic to “other topic,” and attempted to write them a message, but each time I pressed a key, their website deleted the letter I had written and cleared the message.

I don’t believe for a second that this was an accident.  The website is designed to prevent people from sending them emails.

Jung on Self-Knowledge.

31-Aug-10

The average civilized person considers much that is human alien to him – precisely the opposite of Terence’s definition of being human.  Once I was walking down a street in Manhattan with two (very smart) friends, and I started philosophizing about the pleasure of killing and eating one’s foes as a mode of revenge.  I consider this self-evident human behavior – and no doubt, it was practiced quite widely – even if the closest we are likely to come to it is barbecuing that squirrel who kept breaking into the attic (and even that we Northerners would consider infra dig).  Well, my friends looked at me as if I were really really crazy.  I attempted to defuse the situation by describing Thoreau’s battle against the woodchuck who ate his beans – Thoreau gave up his vegetarianism to eat that one beastie – and then I quoted Homer with satisfaction:

“Would that my soul would allow me to cut your heart out and eat it, for the things you have done to me.”

– A saying of Achilles which is utterly human, even if most people do not know they are capable of such things.  In fact, I would say knowing what you are capable of is wise, as it may prevent you from actually doing it.

Jung on this:

Most people confuse “self-knowledge” with knowledge of their conscious ego-personalities.  Anyone who has any ego-consciousness at all takes it for granted that he knows himself.  But the ego knows only its own contents, not the unconscious and its contents.  People measure their self-knowledge by what the average person in their social environment knows of himself, but not by the real psychic facts which are for the most part hidden from them.  In this respect the psyche behaves like the body, of whose physiological and anatomical structure the average person knows very little too.  Although he lives in it and with it, most of it is totally unknown to the layman, and special scientific knowledge is needed to acquaint consciousness with what is known of the body, not to speak of all that is not known, which also exists.

Jung and Freud.

30-Aug-10

I have always had a poor New Yorker’s skepticism of “therapy” – shrinks and psychoanalysis.  That sort of thing, goes the prejudice, is for Manhattanites; and it never cures them anyway.  In fact, it is likely to make people more self-centered and self-justifying than ever.  An acquaintance with Freud’s writings, and the atrocious way that Freud is used in intellectual circles, did not encourage me in this regard.

But I have really found Jung entirely different.  And you can see his polemic against the Freudians in pieces of writing like this:

I should like to show by means of an example how important it is to evaluate the unconscious contents correctly.  A young man brought me the following dream: “My father is driving away from the house in his new car.  He drives very clumsily, and I get very annoyed over his apparent stupidity.  He goes this way and that, forwards and backwards, and maneuvers the car into a dangerous position.  Finally he runs into a wall and damages the car badly.  I shout at him in a perfect fury that he ought to behave himself.  My father only laughs, and then I see that he is dead drunk.” This dream has no foundation in fact.  The dreamer is convinced that his father would never behave like that, even when drunk.  As a motorist he himself is very careful and extremely moderate in the use of alcohol, especially when he has to drive.  Bad driving, even slight damage to the car, irritate him greatly.  His relation to his father is positive.  He admires him for being an unusually successful man.  We can say, without any great feat of interpretation, that the dream presents a most unfavorable picture of the father.  What, then, should we take its meaning to be for the son?  Is his relation to his father good only on the surface, and does it really consist in over-compensated resistances?  If so, we would have to give the dream-content a positive sign; we should have to tell the young man: “That is your real relation to your father.”  But since I could find nothing neurotically ambivalent in the son’s real relation to his father, I had no warrant for upsetting the young man’s feelings with such a destructive pronouncement.  To do so would have been a bad therapeutic blunder.

But, if his relation to his father is in fact good, why must the dream manufacture such an improbable story in order to discredit the father?  In the dreamer’s unconscious there must be some tendency to produce such a dream.  Is that because he has resistances after all, perhaps fed by envy or some other inferior motive?  Before we go out of our way to burden his conscience – and with sensitive young people this is always rather a dangerous proceeding – we would do better to inquire not why he had this dream, but what its purpose is.  The answer in this case would be that his unconscious is obviously trying to take the father down a peg.  If we regard this as a compensation, we are forced to the conclusion that his relation to his father is not only good, but actually too good.  In fact he deserves the French sobriquet of fils a papa.  His father is still too much the guarantor of his existence, and the dreamer is still living what I would call a provisional life.  His particular danger is that he cannot see his own reality on account of his father; therefore the unconscious resorts to a kind of artificial blasphemy so as to lower the father and elevate the son.  “An immoral business,” we may be tempted to say.  An unintelligent father would probably take umbrage, but the compensation is entirely to the point, since it forces the son to contrast himself with his father, which is the only way he could become conscious of himself.

The interpretation just outlined was apparently the correct one, for it struck home.  It won the spontaneous assent of the dreamer, and no real values were damaged, either for the father or for the son.

Not merely why – not stuck on the past, not trying to assign blame about what our parents did or did not do – but what for.  How is it that Freud got to be the influential one?  Unlike the Freud stuff, Jung always seems to me real and important – not merely a game to blame your parents for your neuroses.

In the Mountains.

30-Aug-10

“The Mosque.”

24-Aug-10

I’ve been out of the loop as far as news goes, and I will say that I really cannot believe that this mosque controversy has gone on so long.  I’m utterly willing to say that anyone who believes in taking away the right of the builders to practice their religion in any place that they find is conducive and which they have duly purchased, is an idiot.  And the supporters of the “compromise position” – “build it, but not so close” – are also idiots.  That includes the governor of New York, apparently, and the archbishop of New York.  In fact, the archbishop’s cravenness make me so mad that I hope that people go protest anytime Catholics try to build a church anywhere near children, or families: “For the Catholic Church to build a church two blocks away from a school, after all the pedophilia scandals, it’s offensive!  It lacks all tact!”  But then again, the archbishop of New York isn’t in the business of building churches, only closing them, so he’ll be fine.

Richard Cohen has written a few utterly reasonable pieces on this topic, a thread which can be started here.

As for some of the arguments of the mosque opponents, let me say that there is always some merit in the lex talionis.  Islamic countries are the worst in the world when it comes to religious freedom, and Sharia law – which is Islamic and religious – is the reason, so therefore we’re going to limit their religious freedom.  Of course Jesus specifically repudiated the Lex Talionis, but that’s another issue.  The point is that in this country there is no they and us anymore; it is only us.  If you want to say that the lack of religious freedom in Saudi Arabia is a rationale for cutting off trade relations with Saudi Arabia, fine.  Saudi Arabia is more offensive from the human rights standpoint than Cuba, with whom we have no trade relations.  If you say this is a rationale for cutting off aid to Egypt unless they end handing out the death penalty for conversion to Christianity (or Judaism, or Hinduism, or Buddhism, etc.), fine.  If you want to say that’s a rationale for setting up a secular government in countries which we effectively govern, like Iraq and Afghanistan, fine.  But it’s not a rationale for abridging the First Amendment in our own country.  And yet the limitation of our own rights has been the consistent reflex coming from the right wing in this country.  Idiocy.

So Far Behind the Times, it’s Ahead.

19-Aug-10

I’ve spent a lot of time this summer criss-crossing the Catskills in my truck, going to landscaping jobs.  My only companions are my thoughts and my FM radio.  I can’t tell you how much I enjoy the radio in the Eastern Catskills.  There’s Woodstock Radio, where I can hear “Maggie’s Farm” or Matthew Sweet or all the terribly adult Don Henley songs, plus the usual Classic Rock stations, then the alternative stations, and the hit music stations, and then there are a bunch of Catskill adult contemporary stations, which appear to be lefttover props from the filming of “Dirty Dancing.”  They’re playing 80s songs I didn’t even hear in the 80s.  “I know that’s Huey Lewis singing – but what song is this???”  “My God – is that DeBarge?”  Sometimes the return to the past has some content, like the XTC song I heard today.  But at other times it’s just time warp.  Yesterday I heard the song “Let’s Hear It For the Boy” twice in less than an hour of listening.

Two Days of Peace, Love, and Planting.

18-Aug-10

I spent the last two days in Woodstock, planting: redbuds, dogwoods, mountain laurel, rhododendron.  And killing barberry.  Two of the good days.  God be praised.

On Bad Religion.

18-Aug-10

“The thickest veils between man and Allah are the wisdom of the wise,
the worship of the religious, and the piety of the pious.”  – Bayazid Bistami

Thinking recently about Religulous – and the religious error of pursuing religion without first pursuing humility.

The Trial.

18-Aug-10

When I walked into court Monday night, I heard the owner of the property at the end of Schumway Road, Todd Brown, who was apparently the main force behind this trespassing prosecution, saying to the police officer/prosecutor, “And if he took any photos back there, those images belong to Catskill Holdings LLC.  I want that prosecuted too.”  The two were going over a thick folder of evidence for the case: maps.  Photos.  Paperwork related to the closing of the road in 1970.  I did not catch the other things.  Only the photos and maps came up in the trial.

But this was certainly not a promising start.  I had something of a hope that the case would be dismissed out of hand.  After all, I had merely gone for a walk in the woods, far from any house, in an area marked by no signs, had done no damage, was apologetic at the time of the offense, etc. etc.  This did not seem to be the kind of thing the government should take a great deal of interest in.  But it appeared that this case would be prosecuted with real vigor.  There were only four people in the courtroom: myself, the property owner, and two police officers, one of whom would be the prosecutor.  This also was a bad sign: the entire court date had been cleared for this trial.

I had not spoken with anyone official regarding the case, and did not know certain key points.  So when the judge entered and convened the court, I interrupted and asked to be informed of my rights.  Did I have the right to a lawyer?  Yes, she said, but not to one appointed by the court.  Did I have the right to a jury trial?  No I did not.  What possible legal consequences did I face?  A maximum fine of two hundred fifty dollars.  And nothing else?  Nothing else.  “Then let’s begin,” I said.  I would be representing myself.

The trial might have been officer Brandon Edward’s first as well as my first.  When asked to make an opening statement, he introduced himself, gave his credentials, and so forth.  The judge interrupted him and asked if he was giving testimony, as opposed to making a statement.  He was not sure of the difference.  So she said, “You’re giving your testimony.  Fine.  Raise your right hand.”  She then swore him in and told him to begin again.  He began reading his statement again.  He had great difficulty reading it and was clearly not a public speaker.  What is more, his giving of his resume – that he studied various types of law at the Police Academy, etc. – seemed an embarrassing waste of our time, and the fact that he could barely speak the words did no credit to his credentials.  I wavered then between confidence that I could beat him in court, and exasperation and depression that this event was truly occurring in the universe.

The court format is not at all self-evident, and requires much practice and forethought to use adeptly.  Under normal conditions, the police officer would tell the story to the judge, with help from the witness, and I would challenge certain bits at certain times; we might get into a heated dispute at a few points; then I would tell my tale from the beginning, with them interrupting and challenging.  But the legal format required that I be silent except when cross-examining or presenting my case; and similarly for them.  This is not easy.  And in my own case, my thinking was muddled by nervousness, and a failure to anticipate things.

The prosecutor had not thought of how to present his evidence, and he quickly called up Todd Brown, his witness.  The two of them went through a stack of photos of the road where I went for my walk.  I was dumbfounded.  The photos had been taken recently – summer foliage and all, not even resembling the time of the offense – and featured “no trespassing” signs, which had not been there when I went for my walk.

This really disturbed me.  It was shameless and dishonest.  It also meant that the case would come down to a contest of facts – and the judge would have to determine whose facts she wanted to believe.

When it came time for me to cross-examine him, I made him admit that he had taken the photos in August, not April, and pointed out that his photos hardly indicated the state of the property at the time of the offense.  I then brought forward my own photos – which I had sagely come back two days after the arrest to take – which showed that the road was not signposted in the least.

He stated that the photo had been altered.  I sputtered out a “What?”  He repeated that the photo had been altered, using Photoshop or some other program.  The accusation struck me as so shameless, again – of course I hadn’t altered the photo – that it utterly eclipsed my capacity to think at the time.  I don’t even have Photoshop on my computer, nor do I have any capacity for altering photos.  Of course I should have anticipated his accusation, but I confess that I am at times utterly unarmed against the shameless dishonesty of human beings.  He also said that the sign on the gate on the road “mysteriously moved” on the very day of the offense – he knew, because he had checked it that very morning.  Of course he had.  What do you do with a person who will brazenly do such a thing under oath?

Not much else happened in that cross-examination.  The police officer continued, now with his own testimony.  He noted that I had walked around the barrier, shown in the photo.  During cross-examination I tried to get him to approve of my photo.  He said that it was four months ago and he didn’t quite remember the appearance of the road at that time.  He also said that there was a sign at the end of the road, but “on the ground.”

When I got to make my case, I brought out the text of the statute, which states that a trespasser “knowingly enters or remains on a property.”  I had cooperated with police who asked me to leave, so there was no question of remaining; as for the entry, I had not knowingly entered private property.  I had been acting on local knowledge: a friend who goes snowmobiling there in winter; another who says that people go “hunting, fishing, and camping” back there “all the time.”  And honestly, everyone I spoke with knows the road, knows where it comes out, knows its course, etc. – all information that could only come from walking it.  And this was only confirmed when I arrived at the place and found it utterly unmarked as private property.  I was back there – I did not deny it – but was not knowingly trespassing.

The cross-examination was without note – the officer noted again that I went around the barrier.  I responded that there are similar barriers for trails all over the Catskills, indicating only that they are closed to vehicular traffic, not pedestrians.

We repeated ourselves for our closing arguments.  The trial took an hour.

The verdict came swiftly.  The judge noted that she did not agree with my understanding of the statute – you don’t need to have knowledge in order to knowingly enter.  Instead, there is a legal standard for knowledge: on unimproved property, (and she referred to the statute-book) you must be told to leave by someone or the place must be “conspicuously posted.”  She found that it was not conspicuously posted, and sent us all home.  She seemed slightly peeved to have had her evening taken up this way.  It is likely that if the police officer knew the law, he would not have prosecuted; and if I had known the law, I would have framed my defense more tightly.  In any circumstance, it was a waste of everyone’s time.

After the verdict, I went up to Todd Brown.  I was apologetic again – as I had been when I was arrested – saying that I did not mean any harm at the time, and I did not want to cause trouble in the least.  He refused to look at me.  He stood at a right angle to me, and looked off in the distance, saying, “These are three nights I could have spent with my son, that I’ll never have back.”  Again, it was so shameless, and so clearly represented precisely the opposite of what he should be saying, that I couldn’t even think of the obvious to say in response: that he had taken his own time from himself, for no reason whatsoever, and taken it from everyone else as well – to present himself as a victim was the height of absurdity.  And he could have handled it like a man, told me to get off his property himself, without running to the nanny state to solve his problems and make him feel important – and I would never have come back.  Even then he at least could have looked me in the eye like a man.  But I was dumbfounded, and could not say anything.  I just left.

Needless to say, the whole thing indicates a major flaw in our system: that winning a case hardly feels like getting justice.  If you are brought to trial at all, you are punished.  To sit on the hot seat for an hour, representing yourself, knowing that you will have to explain this, if you lose, any time the question appears on a job application, “Have you ever been convicted of a crime?” – it is a form of suffering in itself, no doubt.  So with large companies that can bring smaller competitors to court, knowing they will lose, but also knowing that the legal system constitutes a perfectly legal mode of harassment.  Merely to be dragged to court is to have lost, in some sense.

Not Guilty.

17-Aug-10

Found not guilty last night in the “walk in the woods” case.  My lawyer friends all swore to me that such a case would never be prosecuted, but prosecuted it was (twice no less!), though the judge seemed nonplussed to be hearing so frivolous a case.  In the end, the trial was interesting – and I know that people who know me will not be surprised to hear that I defended myself, doing all the cross-examinations, and the like – but as the library here in Woodstock is closing in a few moments, I will have to leave the narration for another time.  I will say this: to be on the hotseat, representing yourself at your own trial for a full hour, thinking on your feet the whole time, seeing people say things of questionable honesty (about yourself, no less!), is not easy.